fear not, my little one

Just this morning while I was getting ready for the class in my room, Daniel and Suryo and also myself watched a news TV which was broadcasting an editorial about terrorism in Indonesia. I was not really watching it, simply look and listen a little bit what the broadcaster read. Oh, terrorism in the world! I don't know what to say about that simply realized that as long as we breath through nostrils, we live in a corrupted world where people have their battles either physically or spiritually at any moment. The desire of certain extremist religious group to 'conquer' this country under them since the very first day of Independence has been a prolonged wound and the feeling of not safe.

As a little kid, I could hardly feel 'safe'. Because I was used to live separately from my Dad, I was being a apprehensive person and sometimes being self-protective. It's only because Lord's mercy that eventually I grew and grew and be what I am-- still so unworthy and nothing, but His faithfulness is always there! I admit that the past has its influence on how I am doing now, but is it necessary to blame what was behind us for making us such and such? It does somewhat influence me (us), but it should not control me(us)! In Him we are free: free to get closer and love Him and our brothers and sisters and also free from the intimidation of fear.

Now that I am just part of very little flock living in this 'wilderness', I can not depend on my own self-confidence to conditioning my mind and my own strength(if I have), will fail me. It is only on Him who said: "To you my friends I say: Do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more..." (Luke 12:4 JB) If He who has Life , the Lord Himself said that, won't we rejoice and heed Him and trust His Word?

Nothing will touch us without His consideration and wisdom! He loves His own so greatly. He preserves and strengthens, saying: "Have no fear, Jacob my son, my little Israel" (Isaiah 41:14 LXX). Have no fear: for I have delivered you, I have called you by my Name; you are Mine. If you pass through water, I shall be with you and the rivers will not drown you. If you go through fire, you will not be burnt, and the flames will not consume you. For I am the Holy One of Israel, Who saves you (Isaiah 43:1-3 LXX).

Lord, once again Your love trembles me! Behold Thy unworthy servant is so powerless, have mercy on me O Lord! For to be content and safe in you is not the fruit my conditioning of mind, but Thou allow me to consciously behold Thy mercy. I tell myself the story of your marvelous deeds (Ps. 145:5 JB)! Amen!

Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner!