I think it's time...

to make something new. But unfortunately, this blog will not be continued. My prayers for my beloved visitors and guests. Love you all. However, I started a new messy and personal blog here, only if it doesn't waste your precious time :D!

Christ is with us!

Yudhie

accept it with joy

I think at times that I need to learn enjoying the pain. Since it is always there and ready on its way. My instinctive and instant reaction toward anything unpleasant has made me swayed here and there. I need to learn accepting it joyfully and with grateful heart as a blessing and not as an annoyance. This is especially true when suddenly a down feeling comes out of blue and it pierces the heart like an arrow. I don't understand how and where does it come, but I come to realize that it can come anytime and can be so harmful. I need the mercy of the Lord to sustain my heart and to occupy myself with the thoughts that glorifying Him. Lord, have mercy!

And thus the next arrives the critical moment: a free choice given whether to be captivated by the dejection and despair, or to endure it silently; to be calm and patiently wait for the Lord. And honestly, this can be really hard. Lord, have mercy!

Yet, who can tell the joy, the great joy which the Lord bestows, the deliverance and help that the Lord gives to whomever voluntarily endure and wait for Him. This makes me to reflect that it is a love to accept everything the Lord allows in joy and peace, to ask for His mercy constantly and rely upon His Holy Will in dealing with every circumstances, including my own distracted emotions and mind. Glory to You, O God! Glory to You!

it's joy

What a solemn and peaceful morning it has been. Praise the Lord for the new day He allows me to enjoy in His mercy. Since last night one sweet contemplation keep flowing in my mind, and that is the fact that the universe and all creation, humankind and even me myself is created through Christ, by Him and in Him and for Him in His great love. It really makes my heart rejoices since it leads me to further gladsome reflection that God out of His love toward His Only Begotten Son made the whole creation through Him and for Him to be His, to be His bride, to be the epiphany of His glory - as Fr Thomas Hopko put it very beautifully in his ancientfaith podcast. Thus all existence; human existence; and yes, my existence- exist toward Him. He loves us with such great, unconditional, and unshakable love throughout the ages to the point that He came down to us in humility, reached the lowest depth of our misery, suffered and crucified for us and for our salvation, and now He raised and sits on the right hand of the Father, as the God-Man glorified! Glory to You, O God! Glory to You!

How joyous for the soul it is, that Our Lord and Master, the Lover of Mankind really loves us. He is ever-good God. This is the truth and in this truth we know that we are to abide in Him, because only in Him we can bear the fruit and outside of Him we can do nothing. Praised be the name of the Lord!

With that in my heart and mind, I woke up and proceeded my steps to the icon corner; with that warmth in my soul. My heart sings, "I am created for Him and His glory". As I looked on the radiant icon of my Lord and kissed it reverently, I can not help but joyfully adore Him in my heart. Christ the Lord is my Joy and my Light, in Him is Life and Hope! Lord, may You keep my heart and mind - my whole life for You as long as I live, since in You I put my trust! Blessed are you O Lord, teach me Your Holy Commandments! O, Holy Spirit, come and dwell in us and cleanse us by Your Grace. Raise us up when we fall and grant us repentance to glorify Your power and majesty!
Glory to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit, both now and ever and unto the ages of ages. Amen!

to stay focus

It's funny to realize at times that the distractions seem more stand out than the main task, even sounds more interesting and pleasant. As for me now a college student, to continue my final paper get me to think hard. To stay focus and do what I really need to do can become a challenging thing really. Yet, in the other side of this coin, I can see a good opportunity to really put the understanding into practice, especially in the matter of self-control. Surely I cannot deal with it totally with my own will. It's all only possible with His blessing to act. I sure need to practice to be faithful in the little things and keeps my mind simple so that the worries wouldn't creep in and be discouraged.

It's really tempting to choose the easy and short way and to get gratifications right away. But I really want to focus on the things that is being trusted to me in the moment. I really pray at least I am granted the patience and strength to faithfully do my task before anything else. How rewarding it is if at least I can do a line or two to add to my final paper today!

As today is so bright and sunny in contrast with the wet days last months and this month occasionally. I think it would be good for me to take a walk for awhile, meeting with some friends and talk to them for a while before continuing working with computer. Lord, bless!

Time to start again!

Here it comes the new year, praise the Lord! Many good things the Lord had granted me in the past year and I am grateful for all of them. I have to admit that I had not been in a very easy time last year but in His faithfulness, He keeps and guards His little servant until this day. The dorm is still very silent until today one of my friends, Jaya came back!
I really pray that in this new year, I am granted wisdom to go the Lord's way and my eyes to be fixed on Him always. My humble prayers for you, my friends and readers so that He may bless you abundantly! Thanks for your kind visit.

And I am thinking of what is this blog about! Well, honestly it started as a simple daily jotting - as simple as it is- there are even my class notes I put here and there. If I am to find a word to describe this blog; it is a story. A humble and day to day story of His faithfulness to his little servant. Sometimes it goes as personal perspectives and or non-intellectual ramblings. So, forgive me if I have had anything inappropriate.

Glory to God for all things! For all the days he's giving. For friends and loving families! For the things waiting ahead. He is good! His mercy endures forever! Ameyn!