Yesterday, by the providence of God, I had a very tough, tough day. I don't know how that came, but the reality I must face was that yesterday as the most stormy day along the week and may be this is the welcoming wind of February? I hope not... This is just a sign for me to sit and start to think.
Yesterday I was with my beautiful students of Grade three when the clock rang in 1.00 pm. I hurriedly up to the school and fastened my steps as fast as I can, although eventually I was a little bit late. Due to my tireness I was not really focus on one thing which is the most precious thing ever in my classroom, my children's eyes.
I realized that I am not really expert in the classroom management. This is a very tough experience for me actually, but I can see gold in the tip of the flog. This is also very beneficial for my pilgrimage. In my heart, tears flew down when I saw my pupil's eyes wew not glowing and they seemed a little bit bored and couldn't really understand me. They acted unacceptably in my sight and honestly I just couldn't got it. Some were really talk-active, some came forward without permission, some so quite yet a little bit tired.... Oh, I should do something as the act of love for them. I realized also this is something that God has given me as a clue to be considered and so that I may be humble myself and depend on Him. Lord have mercy.
The first thing I can do right now is to pray. I pray for their precious souls, O Lord, have mercy also upon them and let Thy will be done on them and not trough my way but Thine Way.
And now teach me o Lord, and I will learn great things from Thou. In my mind there is an idea to tell a very attractive and classical Indonesian folk-tale: Timun Mas. Will it be succeed? Let's see tomorrow!
Lord have mercy!
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