from a mosquito racket

Some days ago, early in the past week, one of my roommate, Daniel was sick and because there only were three of us in our room, me and Suryo and Daniel who was sick, so I managed myself to be able to stay in the dorm to take care of him.

Interestingly, in the afternoon, while I was sitting at Daniel's bed edge, I asked him:
"Daniel, do you need something or would you like me to get you something to make you feel better?"
With his remaining power he looked at me and replied, "Yudhie, don't worry. I'll be getting better soon since I feel much better now and I don't think I need something. But if you would like, I need a mosquito racket."
I am wondering, "Hmm, mosquito racket?"
"Yes, I am sure that what has caused my fever is the mosquitoes, and I think this would be better if you get the mosquito racket to kill the mosquitoes, so that they'll not endanger us."

I think, I learned something from Daniel. Sometimes, if somehow we feel hurt or wounded by anything (or anybody), there an easy temptation to put the attention merely to the self. Thus what will be often seen is only the wounds and the sweet melancholy and oneself effort to make that (sickness) become better for oneself welfare; instead of asking for the mercy from the True Healer and entrusted our life entirely to Him, while praying that the sickness and wounds which is afflicting us shall not embitter our soul nor by that harm others, but rather to save them. This reminds me to Joseph ben Jacob, Job the Righteous in his sickness and sorrows, and Our Lord Jesus Christ WHO has the perfect Love!
Thanks Daniel :)!

Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner!

a violin without strings

Just before lunch time, while I was shelving the books in the library, something caught my eye. That was a tittle of a book in Bahasa Indonesia: "Biola tak berdawai", in English it is " a violin without strings." And this provoke my thought by its symbolic and poetic language. So as soon as I returned the book at its place, I recited this little phrase in my heart and tried find something that I can learn from this.

Once, when I was in Lombok island (an island in the east of Bali) attending a youth competition for several days, on the weekend I got the opportunity to see some teenagers (at my age that time) played their violins very elegantly. The music which came out from their instruments was just so beautiful and heart-warming. Deep inside in my heart, I really wanted to be able to play that instrument, since I had never even touched a violin before. Overwhelmed by amazement, I saw them playing and kept admiring them! O, a teen as I was that time! But the experience in the past taught me to repress anything that is "too big" for me, in this case a violin.

The time came when a year later, I had finished my study in Sumbawa Island and I went to Jogjakarta, in Central part of Java island. There I met my sister's college friend who can play a violin. Seeing my amazement toward his playing, he offered me to teach me violin. I gladly accepted his offer and for a little time he taught me the basic skills. However small the skill I had have, but you can see how joyful my eyes that time were, while wishing somehow and someday I would be able and may continue play a violin.

But again, behind me, the experience imposed me to forget this little sparkling wish. However, even until now I keep this little hope within me, I know that it is just childlike dream or in my dictionary, this is teenagerian want. But this is very funny for me when I am realizing that it (this little want) is with me, LOL.

So, that was the story about violin. In another side, if I come back to the book tittle which has caught my eyes: a violin without string, (I know that there are many possibility, but) what came out in my mind is that, it is under construction or being repaired. Surely in time, a precise and fit strings will be on it. But it is in need of patience just little more time, while waiting its Master placing the new strings on it. Yes, because this violin can never play by itself, what's more without the strings-- its life, which it must receive from its Master. Thereafter The Master plays it and it produces sweet sound. Its beauty always tell His Master's.

I know how poor I am in making an analogy, since I am just a babbling boy. And what do you think you can learn from a violin without a string?

Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner!