Tears.Repentance.Humility.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on us!

I realized it, in the midst of my contemplation and reflection. Forgive me O Lord, Thy humble servant and grant me Thy Mercy to strive with humility. As I step ahead, one by one and single by single steps, I am learning the True faith and living in it, by God's grace. But in the my fallable and sinful nature, I have to face the temptations and many perils.

Forgive me, O lord if I have despised my brothers, feeling superior or many other distractions that has become a stumble to my fellow pilgrims and even to my own steps.

Lord, grant me a humble heart and love unto Thee and unto my neigbors.

These days, I struggle with the comfort zone. I want everybody listen to me, but I myself not really listen to them. I feel good whenever I have the confirmation from other and every body loves me! I strive, some and other few moments with my own self-pity and self-centeredness. Lord, Forgive me!
O, how deceitful my fleshly willes are, so Lord, have mercy on me. But, Glory unto You O Lord for all things, Thou always work trough all things and Thou Loveth our souls. Thanks, for Thy providence so that I will leave my comfort zone, self-serving and idle imaginations.

The Great Lent is at hand and God has provided us a with his moment to "embark on a heroic and noble journey":

"Our journey is called Great Lent, our duties on this perilous voyage include
forgiving, fasting, repenting, praying, maintaining sobriety, being vigilant,
and loving. May God help strengthen us on this sojourn with His Holy Spirit,
with His Word, with His presence, and be allowing us always to see and move
toward the dawning Light of the Resurrection" (Father's Ted's Blog)

Grant me O lord, Thy grace!

Pure....

this morning, together with my friends from the Secondary Program in TC (Teachers College) we have the devotion together. And Ibu Yenny gave us insight about the word of God from Proverbs 30, the sayings of Agur.

30:2	Surely I [am] more stupid than [any] man, And do not have the understanding of a man.
30:3	I neither learned wisdom Nor have knowledge of the Holy One.
30:4	Who has ascended into heaven, or descended? Who has gathered the wind in His fists? Who has bound the waters in a garment? Who has established all the ends of the earth? What [is] His name, and what [is] His Son's name, If you know?
30:5	Every word of God [is] pure; He [is] a shield to those who put their trust in Him.
30:6	Do not add to His words, Lest He rebuke you, and you be found a liar.
30:7	Two [things] I request of You (Deprive me not before I die):
30:8	Remove falsehood and lies far from me; Give me neither poverty nor richesFeed me with the food allotted to me;
30:9	Lest I be full and deny [You], And say, "Who [is] the LORD?" Or lest I be poor and steal, And profane the name of my God. (NKJV)

oh, what a saying! Wisdom! Among my seeking of the meaning of humility, God gives me a very strong one, I say together with Agur,

Surely I [am] more stupid than [any] man, And do not have the understanding of a man.

I neither learned wisdom Nor have knowledge of the Holy One.

Who has ascended into heaven, or descended? Who has gathered the wind in His fists? Who has bound the waters in a garment? Who has established all the ends of the earth? What [is] His name, and what [is] His Son's name, If you know?

Every word of God [is] pure; He [is] a shield to those who put their trust in Him.

For surely O Lord, Thy word is pure and Great!
Glory to God, Glory to Thee!

Vigilance over the senses....

Lord, have mercy!
There are, in many things, 'pleasures' we can find each day, each hour each seconds around us, aren't there? At least may be yes if you would say so. In our today's global culture, we often hear the term of pleasure seekers, comfortable, convenience and etc. How should we deal with that?

And I admit once again I appreciate Fr. John Oliver for his answer toward this issue in his podcast in Ancientfaith Radio which he based on the sayings of St. Nicodemus of Holy Mountain, I really thank you, Fr. John. It is a gift from God that we could enjoy the beauty of the nature, the sweetness of the sound and the delicious meals as I believe the very things He himself experienced during his time on earth even it is iconic to recall us about the beauty of the true reality of heaven. But let's not forget God," by replacing the pleasure of God by the pleasure of the world; leaving our Father's house and wasting our time with swines like did the prodigal son". Instead,
"placing those pleasure back to its proper place as the spice of life and not the main course. We learn to control it and not to be controlled by it. And we begin with as like St. Nicodemus of Holy Mountain said, by admitting that we are powerless against the temptation of pleasures then by looking for the way to limit its dominance over us".
We need to keep vigilance over those all, and let those not distract our love for the most precious and eternal things which not come from this fallen world, but from Him alone.

Often, the will of the flesh are very deceitful and distract our amazement and wonder toward the God, the Most Holy Immortal One.
(To hear the original podcast of Fr. John Oliver, you may click here)

Lord have mercy!

Ice Cream

Yes, it is right that sometimes we taste the sweetness of the shiny sun in the sea shore, and the fragrance of the summer scene. That is like today when I got a surprise from a friend of me. She is a really nice and kind girl. Among our business of day she have really refreshed my heart. Give me a cool and simple taste of friendship and sincerity by two sweet ice creams. That's awesome and so tender.
even when I simply smile and be with her, that was so great and unforgottable. Although sometimes the life together is not always like meadow in the field, but honestly I admit that today is just a very sweet day.
The sweet day is when we share our unconditional love to other without necessarily demand them to love us, as Abba Dorotheus teaches us.

Grant me, Thy Mercy O Lord!

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me!
Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me!
Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me!

Collective

"Gotta make up class, huh?" said my friend this morning, when I got up early in the morning and got my uniform. It is a usual thing that in the morning we greet each other with sleepy and unruly face, but with a strong and certain message of friendship and closeness. Yea, this is my life in the dormitory in my campus. We have 9 persons in a little bit large room and just like live in a collective manner, many possible interactions each day may be happened. But, Praise to Thee O God that as far, We live together in peace and warm days. I really thankful whenever I remember how difficult this moment to get randomly. They are persons whom Thou hast allowed to be in my life, my bravo friends.

How I rejoice when I see you early in the morning with your encouraging words of today, Robert and Jeko! And I can feel your Indonesian soul and spirit Ensa (Mas Putro), Mudiono (Mas Dion). What a big dream you have Edberg and Wangsit. Michael, Herbetd you like play around huh?!! That's so much fun!! I will always pray for you guys, be friend foreva!

Humbling my soul

In the bright and shiny day today, after a very wet and rainy day yesterday, I feel so tender and amazed at the Grace of my Almighty God, The Christ the Conqueror!

I breath so deep and slowly, and I feel a little bit harder than usual to take those breathes into my lungs. A little bit heavier and my eyes become a little bit weak. But I dunno how it comes, I feel a sense of joy and peace within my heart.

I now realize that my life should not depend on the circumstances that occure around me or to be ractive upon everything which appear. Thanks Lord for Thy mercy that Thou once again remind me that Thou art the true God, which I can trust with all my heart, my mind and stength. Thou art God who sustain me in my weaknesses and limitedness. I humble my soul to Thee O Lord today, let my prayer arise in Thine sight as incense and let the lifting up of my heart be an evening sacrifice, Hear me O Lord!

Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God have mercy on me a sinner!

to Communicate it, I need Thy Mercy

Well, this week I have been learning trough a book in the communication psychology, and as I observe those in the reality, I just simply found so much 'aha!' moment. That's just great. Besides reading some very great sayings of the holy fathers, I also learn the lives of my orthodox friends and fathers trough blogs.

And one thing I keep learning in this week is about self-esteem, self-image, etc. and also couple things about apprehensiveness, self-disclosure, and some others things that really made me reconsider about my communication habit. Although I didn't receive it as it is crudely and some others seems a little bit human-centered, but at least I may learn a really good common thing about communication, especially in the subject of self-disclosure.

I read the example of how the communication setting, context and the responses can very determine the future communication or even the next condition of the relationship. Even the content and the communicator are the same. but the writer brilliantly contrast each other become a very nice model!

Oh, I love to learn and reveal that myself is not really what I think I am, because I need the mercy of God, his divine knowledge to grant me a heart to learn and step in the path of love to Him, because no other happiness might compare to be with God. And there's no such wisdom and knowledge above the Majestic Revelation of Christ, God Himself. And He is everything in my life.

Profound saying of St. Silouan on the Love of God, from Fatblog

This article is so great! I found it in Father Stephen's blog (Glory to God for all things!)

I cannot remain silent concerning the people, whom I love so greatly that I must weep for them. I cannot remain silent because my soul ever grieves for the people of God, and I pray for them with tears. I cannot refrain from making known to you, brethren, the mercy of God and the wiles of the enemy.

Forty years have gone by since the grace of the Holy Spirit taught me to love mankind and every created thing, and revealed unto me the wiles of the enemy, who works his evil in the world by means of deceit.

Love does not depend on time, and the power of love continues always. There are some who believe that the Lord suffered death for love of man but because they do not attain to this love in their own souls it seems to them that it is an old story of bygone days. But when the soul knows the love of God by the Holy Spirit she feels without a shadow of doubt that the Lord is our Father, the closest, the best and dearest of fathers, and there is no greater happiness than to love God with all our hearts, with all our souls and with all our minds, according to the Lord’s commandment, and our neighbor as ourself. And when this love is in the soul, everything rejoices her; but when it is lost sight of man cannot find peace, and is troubled, and blames others as if they had done him an injury, and does not realise that he himself is at fault - he has lost his love for God and has accused or conceived a hatred for his brother.

Grace proceeds from brotherly love, and by brotherly love grace is preserved; but if we do not love our brother the grace of God will not come into our souls.

Lord, Grant to me, Thy unworthy servant a humble heart

Lord, have mercy! Today, I learn a very interesting and salvific saying of St. Silouan, which I get from Fr. Stephen's blog here it is: " The soul that has acquired humility is always mindful of God, and thinks to herself: ‘God has created me. He suffered for me. He forgives me my sins and comforts me. He feeds me and cares for me. Why, then should I take thought for myself, and that is there to fear, even if death threaten me?"

Lord, have mercy.
Yesterday, when I felt a little bit disappointed because my ideas which I have already hardly to construct yet, my lecturer said that that would not be work, and actually hers is a reasonable one but because of my own flesh will, I felt very uncomfortable with that and almost in my heart I thought with defense mechanism. And also unintentionally, I act and speak, communicate and respond in such away which are not depicting humility. Easy to observe the others weaknesses and hard to accept my own faults. But by the mercy of God, my Gracious Lord Christ reminds me that I should learn humility.
It's hard, though... because of my sinful nature. I also found that it is me who sometimes feels know better than other people, and shortly it is so easy to say that I have right to build my comfort zone, free will to do and to be A, B, C..... and so much others, other than sacrifice that and submit myself obediently to The Most Holy God Father, Lord Jesus Christ and Life Giving Spirit!
But Lord, guide me so that by thy mercy, I may live a holy life, well pleasing unto Thee!

Prayer by St. Philaret, Metropolitan of Moscow

O Lord, grant me to greet the coming day in peace.
Help me in all things to rely upon your holy will.
In every hour of the day reveal your will to me.
Bless my dealings with all who surround me.
Teach me to treat all that comes to me throughout the day with peace of soul, and with firm conviction that your will governs all.
In all my deeds and words guide my thoughts and feelings.
In unforeseen events let me not forget that all are sent by you.
Teach me to act firmly and wisely, without embittering or embarrassing others.
Give me strength to bear the fatigue of the coming day with all that it shall bring.
Direct my will, teach me to pray, pray you yourself in me.
Amen.

Love this moment

Feb 14---Lord Jesus Christ the Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner. After thinking for a while, I found that this week is just amazing week for me. Although it's tiring enough, yet by the Love of God this all can be passed trough.
This Saturday, together with my beloved friends: Bernard, Aldo, Albert, Mela, Priscill, Dwi, Saras, Ruth, David, Mr. Dennis, Ibu Yuli, Mieke, Moreen, Suryo, Ricky, Frans, Ko Petrias, Gloria, Bela, we celebrate the nice Valentine's day.
We shared so manythings there and eat a local Indonesian food, Marthabak Mie (Noodle Omlete), chocolate jelly, Tropical fruits juice and many delicious and yummy foods. Just awesome.
We got to the dormitory and a little bit exhausted haha. And took a rest. It's amazing to have friends and to be in one common life with them, just great!

Willingness to Listen

Oh, what a busy, crowd and noisy world it is. Nowadays in my place where God by his Mercy allowed me to be, each person has their own --or sometimes more common "unique" thought, dreams, wills, wants, needs and many other 'private importance's. A life or a space for their own lives. Yes, every body struggle for something that is good for personal basis.

Until they realize that there is something more than that, something more than themselves, something more than me. As God hath placed in our hearts a sacred hunger (as the phrase used by Fr. John Oliver) for Him, his presence and in one relation, true and deep one. Thus inevitably we also have the desire to be in one community with other people. We may not live alone and follow trough our own 'pleasing' desires.

But, the fact is that, I can feel sometimes many people- a half meter, a meter, two, five, ten or more meters away from me, they gazed at the emptiness and vanity, a kind of meaninglessness due to helplessness in this precious life, just because they feel nobody want --and forget their willingness to simply listen to the 'soulspeech' of their brothers and sisters. Sometimes the preoccupations, perceptios has unfortunately overloaded our minds to the point we have no more space for others, for those who need our care and our ears-- The willingness to listen and to weep for them and to help them.

Forgive me,

a humble servant of Jesus.

Warm [and sweet!]

What is it? Is it a fresh chocolate? Aha? May be. But, actually this just feels like that. This is the only word that I can use to describe today. OK, as you all have known that tomorrow will be Valentine's day. But the tenderness and the fragrance of this special day during such a well-pushing month can I feel right now.
Yesterday I received a really small nice Valentine present from my 'secret' Valentine, this is a part of our class program, and today We opened together the presents in the class. This is really good moment honestly, when I and my friends in '2EMM1' group celebrate the Valentine day together although the simple celebration will be held tomorrow in Mrs. Yuli's home, our care group leader. I keep smiling during this day to see how enthusiastic my friends are and I would like to say thank you to 'somebody' who has given me really cool gift today, and I always wish for the best of us.

Anybody wants to get gift in this warm, shiny [and sweet!] day? Just tell your friends.

Just another blossoming day of the Lord!

Speechless moment: when we learn

Today, I got the new and again new lesson from this pilgrimage of life. In the early morning when I was reading and being amazed by the story of the saints, the friends of mine said something that disturbed me. He said that I must be careful, because I will be led astray by that. I didn't understand that and I know that he, as well didn't know what he is saying. So I claimed that he made mistakes but I wiped his 'debt'.

so, along the way to work I contemplated at his words and I just didn't get it. So, I contemplated, as the rflection to the suffering of Lord Jesus Christ to the Cross. How every body mistreat him both physically, mentally, emotionally and shortly I said, totally. But how great it is to consider that He could endure that's all because of His Love, Trust and Obedient to the Father. I was really amazed by these things which I contemplate. Based on that reflection, I bowed down before the Christ and with contrite heart I ask for his Mercy that he would grant me a heart to learn humility and obedience.

In the class in where I teach, It is a surprising experience that came to our (me and my collage Stefany) teaching. The students seemed to be misbehaved and I just could not make it sense. That was unacceptable for me. I didn't really understand what was going on! One of the students, Shawn had his nose bleeding and another one Peter, his hand was trapped in the hole of chair! He shouted and cried out. Fortunately, there was one of my mentors passed by and gave us help with the situation.

Oh...... What an experience today! Lord, grant me a teachable heart! Lord have mercy! And yes, trough this moment, I realized that it has been many times when I spoke to others as if I spoke to my own will. I forgot that my assumption might not be the same with others. Shortly, I didn't really hear what others' speech. I did neither express nor tell my heart and my intention clearly to others whereas they actually, somehow didn't. Sometimes I forced my expectation to others when they don't really understand it. It's not fair sometimes. Lord have mercy.

Now, Lord let your servant ontinue to learn and experience Thou deeper and deeper and may attain Thy unapproachable Glory trough Thy Son, Jesus Christ! Amen!

After the Stormy day

I can still remember how hard yesterday was. I was being overwhelmed and over-used and pre-occupied as well. I have to force myself to do big jumbo assingnments and the time for that day was 24 hours maximally!

I was being hurried myself to the left, right. My mind was kept moving with anxiety and sometime chaos. I was nearly saying "Oh, is it time to give up now? Please I can not endure this! It really, really wears me out! It's enough. I want to escape! Why there should be the day like this?". Yet, It's over now. The Calculus was jsut finished well, Basic statistics, checked! PSAL, it is alright. But, actually this is unbelieveable, especially when I remember that last night, at 12 pm I was still doing the basic statistics with super duper stress, to the point I made a cup of tea to reduce it.

How Gracious Thou art, my God! I could have not done that without Thy Mercy and Love. It seemed to me to be unbearable, yet The truth is what Thou sayeth that Thou wilt giveth us Thy strength! And now, I have seen Thy Mighty hand and Thou hast delivered me from the dark time in this trough.

Glory to Thee O God, Glory to Thee!

Nice Memory of Friendship and Adventure!!

These things always made me doubt with reality, sometimes one or two or more things just by somehow came into our lives without we predict it before or even you've never imagined that. But that moment just happen and so often, that became the Great moment in our lives.

This is what I feel this Tuesday (Jan 20-09) and also this week, by the way.... when I met a really amazing man in my life, Fr. Daniel Byantoro. He's a really great man I ever really talk and meet with. O God now I can see and taste how wonderful You are and also met his nephew from Korea, Cho Ye Chan! I can not even describe it in words.

Unexpectedly, among my feeling being alone and helpless, the comfort from God is one thing that really make me amazed. He gave me a wonderful friend and even tough we have just met for the first time but because of His name, we even have been so close and like real brothers.

I was over-joyed and so glad to have such great and beautiful experience with Fr. Daniel, Ye Chan Yong, Ignatius ssi, and Peter ssi. Started from Monas tower, Miniature of Indonesia and then to Taman safari has changed my life and has opened my eyes to see more about what is life.

T O U G H day--week

I think I should be aware and learn more and more until I understand that this week I need God's mercy so much to face such a tough week, which usually indicated with the increasing of the assignments and homework, stress and hard mental and intellectual work. No wonder, actually because this is February! I like February so much despite of many challenges which I know will come and will require intensive vigilance and prayer. Beside that I can feel the the Great Lent is at hand, Lord have mercy. Grant me Thy Grace so that I will not fall a sleep and dragged into pit.

I trust Thou O Lord, that Thou will enable me to live a holy life, both thinking and doing such things as are well pleasing unto Thee. Right this day when I need to acomplish my Basic statistics homework, PSALmath module and Pedagogy 2 first assignment. I even think hard to count how much times I will struggle with my fleshly will to avoid, postphone, became lazy and despire, just right now. But remembering that this all not about me or about my vain glory, but for Thou O My Master, Let it be according to Thy Will.

Glory to the Father and to The Son and to the Holy Spirit, both Now and ever and unto the Ages of Ages!

Lord, Jesus Christ the Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner!

O Most Holy Theotokos, have mercy On Thy humble servant.

Pray to the Lord for me O Saint Theophilus, well pleasing unto God. I fervently entreat you who are the sure help and intercession for my soul.

Beautiful Challenge

:P, again and again today I got something to learn. And the good news is that it is not always fun any how. And the very thing that I must deal with, is a verything also I am learning now.

Recently I am reading a book of Interpersonal Communication (just as I read in the story of yesterday) and just right now I have to tacle a little bit serious problem under the same topic in reality. It's awesome, isn't it?

Well, however I have said that to you that It doesn't always fun, unfortunately! It is something that crush my heart, demand our energy and a strict obedient to learn humility. I have to fix it one by one, and even may be a trial and error process. But, Lord, behold I am a manservant of Thine, let it be according to Thy Divine Will.

There's a miscommunication among me and a friend and this is about Student On Work (SOW)Requirements in SPH (do u still remmember). My mistake is not confirm it as soon as possible and report it to the Person in Charge, so that the place that had been occupied by me with a 'status quo' --but I don't know how it comes-- but the person who does the 'casting' just keep asking other person to work in the same. I need to talk and clarify this to them. For our goodness together.

Thanks Lord for a day to learn!

Sunday. Hard. Nice.

Do you read the title? Haha,.... what do u feel? Yes, it is true, Sunday is just a very special day to contemplate the things. For instances, the beauty of the creations of Ever Good God, His Mighty power covering all his dominion, sky and the sea (and btw, We have a very bright clouds here in Indonesia).

The sun is so brilliant shines upon the Lippo Village International circuit this morning. This same circuit stretched around the building G of UPH, that is my dormitory. Last night I was overwhelmed by my reading about Communication Psychology book: Messages. And this morning actually I didn't feel really well. But as soon as I realized what day is today. I just feel the enthusiastism came back to my soul.

After attending the morning chapel, I came back to the dorm before an announcement rang and I need to go to basketball court to be present in the opening ceremony for launch of the circuit. I felt the mixture between cheers, tireness, smile and exhausted face. It is so noisy here but I can see a lot of fun outside there!

Just another cool day!

When tis all get restored

uh.... I just felt so much relieved. I just am really convinced by the evidence of the mercy of Lord this week. No wonder, since I was really languished by some kinds of depressing moments which happened just at recent time. I got a little bit challenging grade 3 students in SPH, I lost my money (remember the story last time?), and also some others little things, which I believe I might pass it trough by the providence of God.

This day, as an exchange of the hardness I must face, I saw my students' smiles, cheers and their growth each day by the time going on and on! As the exchange of my worry because of the lack of financial source, yesterday I got Ang Pao (Chinese New Year gift from Mr. James Riady), even my friends as well. I also lost the document of my book translation, and His Mysterious Power allowed that data to be restored by one of my good friend, Samuel Girsang. Ah.... These all just so much amazing things I witness among my very simple life. Thanks Lord, may I also realize that this is like what Thy kingdom will be. Just trust and obey Thy Ever Good Will and with fear and trembling until Thou cometh and after while He will restore everything. Amen!

This is a Lesson!

Formula versus (oops!) Relationship

Hey one more time I found a little bit funny thought today. Ehm and who did predict that today I got some a tiring day after lunch, about 12.30 pm until the dinner at 18.30 pm I was tufted by so many blessings, haha I had to study in room 601 A and 2 of building B UPH Teacher college where the princes and princesses of Education from all around Indonesia (by all regards) gathered and I was just a little bit enjoy among my *alled in* or *overused-ness* to be with my friends in a class which we call *2EMM1* and day by day all the advantures that we share togather make us really close just like family.

OK, then come back again to the topic. The last class today was PSAL (Planning, Strategy, Assessment and Learning) Mathematics with Mr. Purba. He told so much about The Fermat's Last Theorem and its development until Wiles found the proof of this theory in 1994. Awesome story btw, and the other thing is He compare or more precisely investigate the connection between formulas and relationship.
He told us that one of his friend once said, "I hate formula.... I love relationship more", It's sounds right but not as right as It seems to be. How come? Since the formula is actually the vivid and beautiful way to describe how the elements in our life inter-related and interconnected each other.

But I think let's just keep it to be a reflection!!

To night!

Breaktrough: It is fair

aha! today is just a new and unique day made by Lord's mercy! and wow, I just simply feel what the Word says in the Ecclesiastes just right now. Today, is started with a really calm and charming morning with the message from Dr. Collin Beaton and that's just remind me to live in manner and glorifying God by surrendering our will to Him. Awesome, shortly I say.

And then I found my self in a very unfortunate lucky in the Photo Copy office. I tended to print only one page of the data file, yet I printed other 10 out of date files, so I wasted the materials because of that. Actually I am now being very regretful. But God has made my day better as the exchange for that.

Still remember the plan of Timun Mas story yesterday? I got a big, big success with my kids. I saw their eyes were glooming and they had their sparkling smiles in today's class. So did my mentor, Ibu Betty. Thanks Lord for today. Thou art so Great! And I do know now what the rewards mean to the kids, and the language as well!

Lord, have mercy

Teacher and Timun Mas (Golden cucumber)

Yesterday, by the providence of God, I had a very tough, tough day. I don't know how that came, but the reality I must face was that yesterday as the most stormy day along the week and may be this is the welcoming wind of February? I hope not... This is just a sign for me to sit and start to think.

Yesterday I was with my beautiful students of Grade three when the clock rang in 1.00 pm. I hurriedly up to the school and fastened my steps as fast as I can, although eventually I was a little bit late. Due to my tireness I was not really focus on one thing which is the most precious thing ever in my classroom, my children's eyes.

I realized that I am not really expert in the classroom management. This is a very tough experience for me actually, but I can see gold in the tip of the flog. This is also very beneficial for my pilgrimage. In my heart, tears flew down when I saw my pupil's eyes wew not glowing and they seemed a little bit bored and couldn't really understand me. They acted unacceptably in my sight and honestly I just couldn't got it. Some were really talk-active, some came forward without permission, some so quite yet a little bit tired.... Oh, I should do something as the act of love for them. I realized also this is something that God has given me as a clue to be considered and so that I may be humble myself and depend on Him. Lord have mercy.

The first thing I can do right now is to pray. I pray for their precious souls, O Lord, have mercy also upon them and let Thy will be done on them and not trough my way but Thine Way.

And now teach me o Lord, and I will learn great things from Thou. In my mind there is an idea to tell a very attractive and classical Indonesian folk-tale: Timun Mas. Will it be succeed? Let's see tomorrow!

Lord have mercy!

Rainy

Hm... recently here in my university town rains so much, but there is a little thing that made me feel a little bit tickled! Doesn't it seem very oddly that the weather can influence the mind and-- hardly to say this, the heart? Haha, really? Yes, may be but not always.
The matter is that is what I find recently. Due to the rainy season, it also be very funny for me because I got so many things flow in my mind, ehm just like a flood of ideas and good things come.
Praise be unto God!

Ones of those things are some really great websites that just I found this week, awesome! I don't need to mention any words, here they are:

snapshot of the day
Contemporary Orthodoxy
Glory to God for All Things

Glory to Thee o God, Glory to Thee!

The Meeting of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in the Temple

This day, The Church celebrate a very magnificent day of Lord's mercy. This happened in the Year 544, when the Constantinople was delivered from the earthquake and plague which carried off thousands of people each day trough His mercy on this feast!

Glory unto Thee o Lord!