Persistent in love

Nowhere did I go to find such beauty
as the amazement
around the shadow of the full moon.
When the glimpse of the clouds tries its best
to hide the radiant rays of the moon,
it cannot fade,
it rather makes the beauty of the moon
become more apparent.
Such is the persistence of beauty,
and the persistence of love.


The world can be a place
where mistrust and preoccupation
makes our love to be suspected.
Many people rather love to comment
and think of the unthinkable evil.
But I trust in man's original innocence;
in that they have also the capacity to trust;
only sometimes blurred.
How starving humanity is!

Cruelty will always bear hatred
and another dozen cruelties.
In the gentle encounter of love and trust
even towards a very lame and unworthy one,
joy and peace are being conceived.
Not in one night or two,
but it can be such a lengthy path.
Yet once your feet step on it,
you will become meek and ardent.
You will humbly accept blessings
in disguise of sorrow or pain.
But that is love and it endures...

How can words and gestures
become tremendous healing and warming power?
When done in silence and in love,
that is in prayer to the Lord the Lover of Humankind.
It needs no bells nor cymbals
but a simple wooden stick
to sustain the swing of the legs.
Simply calmed down and being watchful,
invoking the most powerful Name in the entire universe,
the love and joy from the Almighty One
greets your heart
and the heart becomes full of energy,
full of eros
that will make you ready to love.

Do you have....

The most frequently asked question for me these months is, "Do you have a girl friend?" Several people started inquire about these things on me. Some are from my mother's generations and some are from my generation. Men and women alike. I guess many of them asked me because they are curious and just want to know a little bit and some because they want to be one. Just kidding.

Well, as you might guess... My answer is,"No... Not yet". I had never had a real girlfriend. May be simply because it's not yet time. Honestly, I am not that passionate about that but yes, of course I want to get married one day. It is a matter of time.

While it sounds simple and trivial, I think quite seriously on this matter. I can say that I am being too sophisticate and somehow choosy. I really hope that I will get a little bit illumination, patience and humility when the time arrives to really open my heart to build a loving and sanctifying relationship of man and woman, living in a Christ-like manner.

Speaking about patience and wait for the Lord to work in our life, it is such a struggle. Now I remember how Isaac met Rebecca, or how Tobias met his wife. Those stories are very beautiful and edifying. Just be cool, man! And obediently wait for the Lord's hands to guide us and place us in the best one according to His will. Personally for me, the challenge in this matter comes from my own commitment to trust the Lord for He knows and gives the wisest and best answer. Yet, many times temptations come either from 'social pressure' or from my own urge for instant gratification. But His love endures forever! I trust He deems best and May the Lord guide and sustain us even when we fall to abide and obey His will! Amen.

All is blessing

It's been so great to explore and discover lots of new things in my travel to Thailand recently. I have been so blessed to see such beauty and splendor in this golden kingdom. Travelling by myself gave me spacious chance to reflect and to quietly admire the uniqueness of the foods, culture and Thai people. Amusing to hear many people commented, "You really look like a Thai." I appreciate those who have commented me.

Now a couple days passed and I am back to the 'normal life'. I really miss the athmosphere of Thailand, Thai's laughters and its hectic crowds. Everything is blessing from the Lord, I am really thankful for that. The more I realize that I really am like a Thai and try to hide it, to more I am being one. It's so funny sometimes but it's something good.

Living my age of 23 has been so windy and stromy. There are moments when I am so empty and craving for love and attention, but there are also times when I feel ready to give up anything for love. Times when cares, thoughts of self-indulge and of settled life crowded my mind but also times of deep contemplation and yearning for real spiritual life.

How can I deal with such unstable mood and highly charged emotionality? The fear of the Lord and love toward Him is the best of all. I remember a time when simply to sit quietly before the presence of the mighty Lord is the best moment in life. A brisk walk to chat light talk with nearest friends or even stranger is the most joyous day. Well, there is a really dangerous cliff for me personally in this journey and that is the feeling of loneliness.
All is great blessing from the Lord, despite my fragile and vulnerable emotions. I want to cling only to the Lord's love which is so stable and invincible to save me to the promised land. Glory to You, O Lord!