All is blessing

It's been so great to explore and discover lots of new things in my travel to Thailand recently. I have been so blessed to see such beauty and splendor in this golden kingdom. Travelling by myself gave me spacious chance to reflect and to quietly admire the uniqueness of the foods, culture and Thai people. Amusing to hear many people commented, "You really look like a Thai." I appreciate those who have commented me.

Now a couple days passed and I am back to the 'normal life'. I really miss the athmosphere of Thailand, Thai's laughters and its hectic crowds. Everything is blessing from the Lord, I am really thankful for that. The more I realize that I really am like a Thai and try to hide it, to more I am being one. It's so funny sometimes but it's something good.

Living my age of 23 has been so windy and stromy. There are moments when I am so empty and craving for love and attention, but there are also times when I feel ready to give up anything for love. Times when cares, thoughts of self-indulge and of settled life crowded my mind but also times of deep contemplation and yearning for real spiritual life.

How can I deal with such unstable mood and highly charged emotionality? The fear of the Lord and love toward Him is the best of all. I remember a time when simply to sit quietly before the presence of the mighty Lord is the best moment in life. A brisk walk to chat light talk with nearest friends or even stranger is the most joyous day. Well, there is a really dangerous cliff for me personally in this journey and that is the feeling of loneliness.
All is great blessing from the Lord, despite my fragile and vulnerable emotions. I want to cling only to the Lord's love which is so stable and invincible to save me to the promised land. Glory to You, O Lord!