In the presence of Beauty

Stand still here
I ponder in serenity
All is mantled with joy and unspeakable peace
Just like flowers in the eyes of spring
Set free and releasing scents
Thus soul tastes the sweetness
Of her beloved Groom

In silence and purity
Shall we be visited such awe
Once that awe is kindled
Keep it burning
Guide it with all might
That it may spread light and warmth

Since like the seeds of thyme
So slight
Thus this warmth sprouts love
And that love is why we are here

Loneliness

This loneliness shall I bear
With smile
It takes a few moment for me
To realize that so far I have been a difficult person

Chasing wind and vanity
My soul grew dimmed
My eyes soaked with heaviness
Could it be overwhelmed
My bones dried up and shattered
A sense of nothingness overcome

Shall I shout
But my mouth shut
Still this loneliness shall I bear
With smile and a wave
Let me take a rest, dream

I am exhausted
Wanting to prove something of worth
Yet why is it?
This coldness
This pressure
Who can stand

In this cave I am waiting
None comes
The music which I play
Seems nobody hears
Toiling and sweating
But that's just nothing

This pain inside
So long has to hide
I am confused and clumsy
Yet again why is it?

This loneliness shall I bear
With smile

Chispa, that bright spark

Keep the log near the fire
That it might burn and glow
Radiates warmth and chispa to admire
Yes that bright spark which set the song flow
The calming air around the place I know
Would send the sadness low
Keep prayers and charity in row
Even it is as simple as handing potato
Since love matters and it makes you grow
By sincere acceptance of the Will and worries to throw

Be the presence
Even when the person kept in prison
Be it in their own ego or persistence
Keep giving away and spread patience
Thus care and attention we share without pretense

Since only love remains

Faith, Faith, Faith

"We have need of three things: First, Faith. Second, Faith. Third, Faith." Mother Gavriella (from The ascetic of love, p. 347)

Reading the life and works of Mother Gavriella always lifts up my spirit. Her pure and incredible trust to Christ the Lord moved my heart, even lots of time brings me to tears. How I realized the fragility and shaky my trust has been and how ungrateful I am to the beautiful and holy Will of The Lover of mankind.
Very easy it is for me either by my weak will and pursue of comfort or by difficult occasion, to fall into sweet melancholicity or any negative thoughts.

So often, sincere answer of any complex whining and whimpering question which I posed is... "Have faith". God is love and in Christ we experience what it means. How He really does love us. He commands and bless us when He said not to worry about anything but trust God who cares. Have faith!

That certainly does not mean that everything will be so smooth and easy like prosperity thingy tells. Rather peace then instilled in our heart whatever befalls. We no longer see the storm too big as to sink but we see The Lord is greater than this; so we fix our gaze to Him. We can put on such sincere smile in knowing that the Lord is watching over us and that He loves us.

'Tis no pain free

A glimpse of reminder passes my mind
The days filled with so much potential
Yes, but they bring a lot of risks as well

Smile
Whatever it is, things will pass eventually
Take courage
Even so many times harms come unexpectedly
Since it is not a pain free world
Why should resent pain
Be it a purification

Silently I wonder...
How from every corner, wounds threat sons of man
In each of my step, lots of hurt and suffering seize and grind me
My soul choked with tears
But again why should I resent pain?
Too often this is but my narrow and blurred vision of reality

He is the Deliverance
Since He too, passes
and bends down to the lowest reality of mankind
and He is not indifferent
He is the truest Comforter of souls

I understand not
I comprehend not
It is mystery and for pure heart to see
As for me now
Together with sons of Adam weep
And between sore wounds dance
Simply live it and bear in heart
That anything occurs for good reason

There are days to weep
and sometimes to smile
That is all I know
Yet life is not merely about what I know
It's for greater mystery
My brain is simply too small to measure it

Till that day

O how I have fallen thousands times
In the day light or in the darkest night
At the blinking speed of eyes
I found my soul loses its might
Thus I laid weeping
Who could deliver thee my soul from sinking

Yet I remember
He who knows it all
In His mercy shall I find refuge
From fierce battle of dust and mud
There shall I flee and beseech strength
To fight and not dispair
However shameful have I been
And damp and bleeding

O Good Samaritan
Behold how my robbers left me half dead
I know no other help
But in your compassionate hands
Help me, My Neighbor
Since I don't know how long will be left
For me to live

Kyrie eleison
Save Thy servant, Master who lovest mandkind.

Sober and sane

One morning the soft wind whispered
A tender and luminous ray fell
On fresh grass whose gaze unscattered
Thus a calm and touching warmth dwell
Early it is but the breeze brings forth serenity

Awake!
Suddenly the voice from the east break
Be sober and sane thus you may see beauty
This beauty in time shall turn to glory
Keep captivated by that beauty
Since that beauty alone could restore you

Be silent!
That you may grow and be patient
For in patience you shall listen
This silence will let you open
Just like blossoming petals to the warm ray of the sun
Give your ears more time and more chance
To the language of silence
That it may be purified and healed
From the numbness of polluted wind

Be ever ready!
Grab your sandals and jar
Filled with sweat and tears
Walk in the rugged road of the hills
To witness lilies grow
And how they smile and so radiant

Thus the soft wind spoke
And disperse as fragrant smoke