I realized that many times I did selective listening and did lots of things selectively. Well, I bet nothing wrong with it, just need to come back a bit backward: what kind of selection do I have?
When my soul feels a bit overwhelmed since my body can be tired very easily, I can be very moody and lonely. Yes, to be honest most of my friends know how sometimes I can be very introvert and 'mysterious'. I am so much conserved. And I kind of resent it when this classic conflict arises within me: I enjoy the company of others and to share and spend a little bit of time with them, but it is the feeling of self-conscious which kills me.
I barely make any personal and meaningful conversation. One side of me which honestly I keep wondering. I am very shy and I feel my tongue locked at the very moment I want to express my idea. But deep inside I want to have time with people and make new friends.
Well, I know that God's love made perfect in my weaknesses. Lord, I trust You. Have mercy on Your unprofitable servant.
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