Keep it on

As the days pass by, being around young souls of third graders as I am, I cannot help but being so very grateful of such 'blessing in disguise' I receive this year. Yes, it was making me a bit concerned when the school assigned me to teach younger kids shaking me off my comfort zone, teaching teens. It is so encouraging that in the midst of so hectic day, one little kid approach, touching me with firm and simple trust and the warmth of spirit. That is very mysterious but it's as if our souls understand how to sustain each other from time to time.

Honestly, when I was younger at the university I got kind of difficult experience dealing with younger students. I was kind of inexperienced and confused that time that I kind of lost my confidence to teach them as part of my mandatory-scholarship-job. But yet I learned a great deal of skills during that time.

However, what I found out now, praise the Lord, turned out to be just great. I am so humbled that God helps me in everything that I put my trust only on him to give in my heart and mind and mouth the things I need to say, decide and act upon them. It is when realizing how I am far from perfectness yet God trust me to step by step lead them in the way of His Truth. Yes, at times I feel a bit insufficient, not good enough to be their teacher. But what can I say? Dad used to say and I trust it: Keep your eyes on Jesus. Lord, help me Thy servant.

Their excitement, curiosity and naivete ignite something in my soul. That fire which keeps me awake and want to learn; awaiting the aha moment from second to second. As they learn something new, that atmosphere actually also catches my eagerness to have the same attitude of wanting to learn and grow.

It takes time I know and it also demands such amount of time, diligence, patience and effort to help them out. Yet, when I look it deeper, it is not me who gives! Since I receive so much good things much more than that I can offer, to these beautiful souls. It is grace of God manifests through His providence, plan and just everything which he keeps sending me until today.

I confess my blindness and insensitivity toward such beauty and majesty that He pours along the way. When He allows any circumstance, He wants to equip me, to transform me, to save me. Without wasting any resource or anything, He keeps working with His strong secret hands to embrace us, to teach us and to cleanse us. Such is the love that He implants in us. A love beyond what the world can give. A love beyond what we ourselves can do. Glory to You, O Lord.