There's moment in this live when circumstances shake our comfort zone for whatever reason that might be. Lot's of times, these crisis puts so much pressure on the mind and we are forced to give certain response. For me personally, that could mean learning things which simply I 'postphoned' because I was not very confident in that and got very easily give up. It could also mean to be consistently get in touch with some work I started and later happened to be lay aside for some reason.
Praise the Lord for His wisdom and mercy. Because I just realized today that those little moments of discomfort and struggles actually are so powerful to keep our focus, shaping and enforcing our faith like no other way. It's just beyond our comprehension to digest but we believe that it works for good for His beloved ones.
One of my stressful factor of being a teacher is the responsibility to keep journal, checking and grading and making detailed observation record on students' progress. These administration things keep me busy and being in the rain cats and dogs of tasks. At some point, I need to admit that it exhausts me and wears me out. Is there any hope that I would be in a more lay back and slower pace things to do? Sometimes that question irresistably comes to my mind.
Yet, how beautiful it is when I see from the other side of the frame. The Lord knows me best and even better than anyone or I know myself. What can I say is, imitating St. Paul, 'Your grace is sufficient for me.' Dear Most Holy Lady Theotokos, teach my heart to say boldly like you did in the audience of the Watcher, 'Let it be according to His will'. And yes, how true are those two beautiful expression of faith. His grace is so sufficient beyond understanding. And His joy is the joy that the world cannot give.
It is our own self-pity and anxiety which magnify the little discomfort whereas those little gems enrich us to be stronger and lifting us higher in the journey of faith. Thus I am grateful for such fitting opportunity for me to learn being consistent and faithful in the little things through the subtle tasks of journaling. How could I not be grateful for such time through which my weaknesses and ugliness revealed. Not for shame! But so that the merciful Hands of the Lord could cleanse it and adorn the soul with holiness. As painful as it could be, his grace is invicible and working beyond our limitation and belief of ourself.
Do not resent. Rejoice and remember The Lord's wonderful and loving hands. He chastises those whom he love so that His splendor and glory might be reflected on us. What is left for us is to be still and wait for the Lord. And pour out our heart into what we are doing faithfully that the Lord's blessing might be contagious to those surround us. Glory be to God!
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