Coming Home

So far, this has been so great, great experience to be in Lippo Village, Tangerang. I got more that what I asked to the Lord, thank you Lord. Have mercy on me Thy unworthy servant. Sometimes I just simply forgot how mighty and wonderful Thou art.

I will go home for about three weeks to celebrate the Nativity in my home town, Lampung. I don't know..... I felt a little foolish today. I had a group assignment with Mela, Ester, and Albertus. Albertus gave his work to me and this morning without any consideration I simpley put in the Mr. Bimo's pigeon hole, so I thougth it is finished. But unexpectedly, Albert came and told how silly I was. The work has to be collected together, I never thought about that. Oh, my God. I dunno what I feel sometimes I am just very unconscious.

Because of my foolishness I will feel really uncomfort both with my self and toward my friends. I am so sorry, how can I be this foolish!
St. Ignatius of Anthioch have mercy on me
Forgive me,

Yudi

Grateful heart for a Christmas

In One Christmas this year,

I am just keep silent, Lord, I beg you for your mercy and give a peace to my soul. I dunno what I feel in this Christmas season, I hope I will be happy. But if I am allowed to be honest as a human kind, I am really sorry now. It seems that I am so despised. I didn't have good contact with my sister and my parent. Inside my heart I so want to call them, chat and make a nice conversation with them, but I dunno until I realized that my relationship with my own family is being so cold.

My Dear Father used to not really have communication with me, yes and I can understand that because we're not used to be in one home since I was an infant. May be I can count how much I met with my father (7 times?). Does he really worry and think about my life and my future right now?I answer, I am not sure.

I lived with my sorrowing mother, a really weak and gentle lady who had done so many great things to my life. In her loneliness, broken heart and weaknesses she provided me with unchangeable love of a mother. I really thank you, Mom. Although now, only your name remain with me in my life. I just remmember how your smile in the Christmas was like a diamond in the center of the dark earth. I am so sorry had made you cried so often and your life was being burdened because of me. I am so sorry Mom, will you see me again one day? I have now grown be a man, yet what does it mean with no one mother values me, I was desolated!

My Dear sister who also has to strive and struggle so hard to survive. A girl-now a Woman with such hard live and dream now has an infant and a husband. I know that she has been to busy and to hard live with her family there. But she also has to afford my life since I am still a student and I need some money from her restless work. Sorry my sister, for making your life even harder because I cling to you and your family. I really miss you since I was so rare to meet you in whole my life time. I remmembered how I really joyful when I was waiting for your letter and phone call when you are in University, and yet we've never been in one home for a mean time. I just pray for you, my sister so that God sustains you and I dunno what to say for your restless work, your tears and prayers to your unworthy brother like me. Thank you.

I do understand why father, sister why you didn't call me. I do, but I just want to pray that at least you can have a calm and peace Christmas and I will trust God to watching for my life. Don't worry about me. Although sometimes in my unstability, I sometimes cried for my lackness in emotional, financial and this hard living, but at least I can smile when I remmeber that in the back of this coin I can find the ultimate picture of Love, wonderful God who sustains us every single second. If I have enough for call you, I will try to make closer connection and warmer realtionship with you, my beloved family.

Christos Genathe,

Doxa Sate!

Photo sesion before Holiday :P

My very very very favorite website of the month [???] and also for the next month

the nominees are:
mail.telkom.net by PT Telkom
Youtube.com by google
akupercaya.com
http://southern-orthodoxy.blogspot.com/ by Father Joseph Huneycutt


ANd the award granted to:

http://southern-orthodoxy.blogspot.com/ by Father Joseph Huneycutt

SOulSpeech: Deep Message, a Reflection on Fr John Oliver's Sermon A SACRED HUNGER

Sometime ago, I heard a podcast from www.ancientfaith.com , a really wonderful website that has influenced my life in these recent ocassions. I have been very familiar with that website for about a half year. It has been really wonderful to know such nice website contains about a really authentic and ancient faith of christianity which has passed trough very long, long time. Exactly, the faith of a hundred times of my own age now.

It is also so great that the sound being proclaimed is just really original belief of Christianity, without manipulation of human interest or pleasure! Awesome, may be that word I suggest to represent my appreciation to this online internet radio station.

Ok, so now back to the reflection on Fr John Oliver's podcast. It is really true and this sentence is a quote fronm him
"God places within us a hunger for fellowship with Himself and creation. But too often man distorts that hunger into an appetite for temporary pleasure."

So true, Father and that is what I feel in my youth age, right now. And I just really amazed how you describe and contrast Sacred Hunger with appetite. Wonderful. That's true! So the exposure promote discontentment and discontentment gives birth to desire and those irrealistic or 'wrong' desires leads to appetite which will never ends. And these cycle back again over time.


Whoa, I just keep thinking that thought during this week and I just found this is so true. Thanks Lord for your great mercy upon me, Thy humble servant that Thou giveth me so simple yet deep wisdom. Glory to Thee O God, Glory to Thee.

And Fr John Oliver, I really thank you for wonderful wisdom you share with me!
Bless me, Father...

Yudhie
And Greetings from Indonesia

Holiday Vs. Peak Bussines

I am smiling when I realize where I am now!! O God, it's just a really hard yet perfect mixture of hope, exhaustion, confusion and cheers. How come? yes, because during this last two weeks, I just being very uncertain about what todo. Should I make a mind map to help me? May be yes. Yes for the reason to make me clearer and to verify what is th urgent thing and what the things I can do later.
So, I have not written them down yet. And honestly I dunno why I am so confused until become so lazy by this time to acomplish or even touch my work.
One thing I suggest as one of the probabilities is that I am not really clear with my own expectation. This is what generally speaking we called Vision. Lord, have mercy may your visin direct me once again in your Path then I can go trough and obey your divine will.

ANd what I can conclude also as one of my weakness in this semester is that I had not been so good in the filing (I mean managed the files for some courses in this term) and the result is.... I can't study Chemistry such in good condition because whenever I want to study, I just not certain what materials I should read since I could not find those I need and I just find uncomplete files. RESOLUTION!!!!


I realize, at last!

My days of Heartbeat ft. SOulSpeech: Boredom, Friendship and Fatherhood

Hey, in this edition, I welcome my really awesome guest from Russia. His name is Kato Hetch. He is a great man, an Orthodox faithful. He's been like my father. Good Russia!