How precious today is! I learn something that is so true in the relationship with others. It started when I was speaking to my beloved co-workers in the library. There was something which I felt different today in the way of communicating with those whom God love, my beloved friends. That was a little thing which makes things be different, because we talk as a good friends and listen to the hearts; to speak the truth in love.
It is my own fear, mistrust and weakness which fails me to really being present for others. At times, I am easily preoccupied with my own thoughts, expectations and dreams. How easy for me to be defensive and fail to listen to others' hearts. Actually how beautiful it is to stop the busy and preoccupied thought and shift it to the state of prayer, "Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of God, have mercy on me!" And by silencing our own mind, we then open our hearts and minds first of all to God and the next to others.
It is good for us to greet and simply listen to the voices and cries of others. When will we pause our own hurriedness to talk to simply be there with them and listen to them? To care for the people which in the providence of God to meet me today in peace, even as broken as I am, but whom God wants that his unworthy servant to be His vessel for these people. Sometimes and often, we find they act or behave in the way which we don't expect. They seems to be so hard and difficult. And in this, we start to escape ourselves from the hurt. But before we do that, have we really listened to their hearts and prayed for them?
In my early life and even until now, it is not an easy thing to get involved with others, especially emotionally. But now, I find that it is important to consider that human hearts --and not only their brains who speak. I need to acknowledge their cries, fears, angers, tears and and little sounds which comes from their wounded souls when I listen to them. This will allow us to move with compassion and bring our presence to them and to pray for them. Do we really listen and response or do we easy to speak and then forget?
St. Siloanos often used to pray like this: "Lord, give me tears that my heart can weep with love for my brother." (An Athonite Gerontikon, p. 256)
Lord, have mercy!
Ameyn, Yudhie! God is teaching, and you are listening, and handing over what you are hearing and seeing. Thanks, brother, for letting us partake of the fruit you bear for Christ.
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