Rememberance of death

The time of my death is a mystery, but I know for sure that I will die one day. May be today, tomorrow, or whenever it is God himself who knows. And for everything which is beyond me and beyond my understanding, I give them up all to the Lord, the owner of my life.

I keep thanking the Lord that he has given me these 21 years, since my first day on this world. In his faithfulness, it is Him who has vouchsafed me to go through a long, long way in the thorny and drought lands. Yet, in Him all those opportunities and providence He provides for His glory to be revealed. And the more I think, the more I feel that this has been too long for me to live. Yes, for me 21 years are so very long! It is in the day where the yoke which the Gracious Lord has trained me with, instead of chains, and glory to Him for all things. I have lived my life so unworthily since I was born with too many weaknesses but also strengths but my negligence in far more still.

But what can hinder His power to manifest through His humble servant? Lord, I am so unworthy but for the sake of Your mercy, keep me for I am Yours. Forgive me, Lord for the mule is smarter than me, because he may bear all things in silence, meekness and patience while me in carelessness. How I have been less than the birds in praising You in Your greatness. How ants have been much more diligent than Thy lowly servant. Only O Lord, help me! You have given me life and today You spare my life in Your Love. While waiting the day of Your coming, also while waiting for the end of my life in this earth, let all glory belongs to You! Remember O Lord, in Thy Mercy all those who have loved me so much, grant them consolation and Thy blessings when at any time I have to fall asleep, not only them, but also those who hate me and wants my end, Lord bless them!

Lord, have mercy!