Clinging to the Lord

There is a special part of my mundane days that I think I will miss when I leave this campus. That's when I go down stair from the library to go for lunch. I don't know why, even though I have passed the same route from time to time but I can feel the difference, fresh sights which can make my mind recharged. The reason for that is because I love to meet my friends and other young people who are interacting to each other. It's just really good for me personally.

Sometimes though, I found myself in the difficult part of this young life, especially when I look into myself a bit much, being discouraged and overwhelmed. That's when the pain of loneliness and emptiness creeping unexpectedly. In those times, it's not difficult for me to escape and skip the reality. I want to jump as quick as I can to that undisturbed solitude and confinement, to kind of skip the pain and wipe the grief.

How many times should I be reminded of Beloved Christ and the Holy Cross? He Who is God-Man, suffered the most pains and unutterable miseries. Yet, how faithful and full of love He stayed still. He loved, cared and looked after his neighbors and even His enemies steadily, unconditionally and undisturbed. Yes, most astoundingly, even He spoke peace and forgiveness even when His pure Hands were pierced with nails on the cross. Glory to You, O God! Glory to You! Christian life will only made possible when we abide in Him and He is in us, since out of Him we can do nothing.

It's like in the harsh wilderness of fallen world, when the vipers of pain and despair bit us, we need to look upon Him and be alive. Let every single sigh and each drop of tears from this weary soul be the fountain of repentance and myrrh gushed out from our longing of True Joy! "Open your lips, O Israel that I may fill your mouth with my mercy!" How beautiful it is that He faithfully sustains His servants and desires the repentance of all. To Him we flee in every moments in life: in joy and sorrow, in health and sickness, in smile and cry.... He is Joy beyond Joy! When we trust our lives to the loving secret Hands of the Lord, then our eyes will be opened and granted vision like His: full of compassion.

My Dad who loves me so much, likes to say, "Always welcome everybody which the Lord send you with kindness and respect, Son!" It's simple and true. And it's only possible when we have that compassionate heart from the Lord! For all things that the Lord send me on my way and for His faithfulness which is beyond my thoughts and heartbeat, Glory to God! Ameyn!