Keep balance

I smiled this morning. When I awoke with mundane heaviness to start the day, I tried to collect myself and made the sign of the precious cross. Yes, it is Sunday! The day of the Lord and thus time to remember Him in a special way, by going to His temple. Silently I sat by my bedroom and not too long before my worries and cares arose in the corner of my heart as to think about what I need to do, what I need to plan and a lot more. Suddenly it feels like a light to my mind. "Hey, why not to be more deliberate; to learn to be present where I am without being eaten up by the urgency to rush and to make my day?"

Yes, that is the very first battle of the mind: to be constantly occupied by so many cares and lose ourselves in agony about what to come, or simply being there, trusting Him who will guide us and show us what He wants us to do. To be honest, in my inexperienced mind, I'd rather try so hard to manage my day in such away to avoid undesirables. I will make five of 'list to do' for the day and ended up doing only one. I tried to figure out, solve and got quite hectic for the day and ended up being overwhelmed and worn out. This habit, in my reflection although is not totally wrong can lead to fatigue and depression. So, what point do I need to recheck?

And that's the reason I smiled this morning. I learn that everything needs to start, to be guided and to be shrouded by prayers! Nothing can be accomplished, can be thanked for and can be celebrated in truest sense-without prayer -- without our gaze toward Him who loves us all. The art of being in peace, being in the present moment, enjoying our work and tasks lies in offering up our trust and constant remembrance of  the Lord. And for me, number one enemy to make this possible is irrational worry and anxiety.

Thus, by being more deliberate, turning any slightest thought of concern into prayer and silence before the Lord results in the sweet stream of peace and joy even in the most demanding hours of our day. We realize where we are, what we are doing, and at the same time we offer incense of prayer and thanksgiving to the Lord.

So, I learn today that in any moment of temptation, difficulty and heavy labor, it is most fitting to seek refuge in the Lord and trust Him completely. Our joy doesn't depend on how much pain we avoid or how much pleasure we can enjoy but in knowing that The Lord transforms us and shapes us through every single event He allows us to experience in His grace!

My Days of Heartbeat 6: Examonoic Syndrome, Exams eXams exAms

Firstly, I want to welcome all the readers of this private blog :P, thanks for your support and enthusiasm you shared me this season. Ehm I just still clearly remembered when I tried to write my frist blog and my curiousity toward it. And once again by the wonder of time, Now this is december 05, which means I have been writing all these a little bit 'gajebo' things for one month. Awesome, isn't it?(It's OK if you say no!). Special appreciation I give to Dewe; my awesome friend, Gloria, Aras, Mela, Ester, Andre (Elizabeth), Dwi, Merry and all friends who had given me support in many, many things.
Anyway, this is not gonna be a farewell party right? haha. I just write for this premire appreciation and also to remember your wonderful names, guys, because it has been a very much joy to be among you and share my life with you in our beloved Campus, UPH and also our distinct college, Teachers College.
And now, about this week. OK.... It was very obvious that I got the Examonoic Syndrome this week. Exam, exam and exam. It is a very beautiful and such powerful key words for this week. I am excessed by those stuffs about the units, especially for Physical science 2.



Yesterday, among my stresses factors, one of them reach its top, which is the Physics final exam!! I was also uproared by the efforts of my friends and also me to understand the concepts of Light, wave, Sound, Electricity, Magnetism and their friends!! Although I don't really know and answer all the questions in that exam but from the heart of my heart I want to give thanks to Mr. Bimo our lecturer for his patience and faithfulness to teach us. Hope the best for you all!!

Awaiting for Christmas!

My days of heartbeat

Today I am in Bukit Sentul City Bogor, doing my first practicum in an international school here. Ehm, I just feel a little bit tired and I start missing my beautiful dorm in Karawaci, even though here I stay in a very beautiful dorm with so delicius diet :). The kids are going for the MYP Youth camp, so we (me and 10 friends including Mela, Recky, Johnson, Dwi, Sari, Bella, Rony, Ory, Rita and Arbie) are the ones who live at dorm. I am in one room with Ronny and keep talkactive hoho. And also I have good friendship now with Dwi, Rita and Recky.
Today, I hope the best for them all especially Mela for her classes in Grade 2, Recky in his cool Science experiments, Johnson in correcting the papers, Dwi with his Renaissance project, Sari with her bussy Grade 3, Bella and his Bahasa and Biology class (and also ko Andre heheh), Ronny with his butterfly :P, Ory for 'her teaching about sin', Rita for our grade 10 lesson plans and Arbie with his fans!
Well, so far I got very good and professional mentors and also students :)! I thank God for Ms Alison, and also Ms Stela for their very encouraging warm guidance during practicum!!
When The PYP people continue their teaching, the MYPs are being confused (esp. me) what to do. So we just stayed in the library doing our lesson plans and many things we must acomplish. Wonderful day! But anyway I start worry with my budget. Lord help me to be save person that I can manage it so that I will make the right decision about my money.
Anyway, I really enjoy interacting with SPH people and also with my great friends. I will never forget this day when we share our burden and training togather to be good teachers in Indonesia.





Always with Love
Yudi